Entities, demons, ghosts, spirits, jinns etc. Fairy tale creatures and folklore. We’ve had friends who’ve seen them or had an encounter with them. So naturally, before my first encounter, I was skeptical, but still afraid. During the Universal Energies course, we did encounter a bunch of them during the exam. We learned how to defend ourselves against attacks. But we were heading in a direction where we would encounter even more.

At the start, we were told that as brand new energy workers, we were prone to being targets of entity encounters or even attachments, and we were told to be mindful of what we do, where where we go and even who we interact with.

That wasn’t to say that we had to stop everything and stay at home. We simply had to be aware when walking around in overcrowded or sketchy place or alleys, especially those well known for being haunted. Also, we were told not to do our energy meditations anywhere outside of home or sacred spaces. But I was stubborn.

One night, I met with my best friend after a few days of exhausting work. I was tired, lethargic and unenthusiastic. For some reason I felt like I couldn’t catch a break and nothing was going my way.

I ranted to him about my lethargy and sluggishness. He suggested I go on a short holiday to calm myself and recharge. I thought about it. It was a good suggestion, yet I still felt something was not right. Like a missing piece.

Eventually, we walked into the train station. When my train arrived, we parted ways. It was about 10.30pm when I boarded the train. I remember the train being quite empty at the time. Only one other person in the cabin, an old uncle with a walking cane.

Still feeling heavy and drained, I decided to put up an energetic shield, hoping it would protect me from further draining. But I felt unsatisfied. I then decided to open up my chakras to do a short energy meditation to recharge.

Making sure my shield was up, I started to bring in energies. At this point, however, I started to grow suspicious of the uncle next to me. He seemed to be closing his eyes and concentrating on something at the time too. I had no idea what, but I decided to ignore it and proceed with the process.

After I got to my third eye or throat chakra, I felt a crawling around my shoulder and back. It felt like it was on my aura. Like a feeling of not purely physical, but also not imaginary. Like a feeling of an insect crawling all around me.

As soon as it happened, I knew I was fucked. My first thought was that it was an entity. Initially I tried to use silver energy, one of the few energy types to cut and clear negative energy. But the entity kept crawling around. I could not keep it to one place. I kept pushing myself to focus and ‘aim’ it to clear it. For the entire remainder of the train ride, I brought in was much energies as I could and repeated the process.

30 minutes later, I got out of the train at my stop. The realisation finally dawned on me. It wasn’t going to come off. My mind immediately went to the next thing. How do I get it cleared?

Adrian charged a large amount for entity clearing. An amount that would put a strain on my finances. An amount that scared me at that point. Though I had more than enough to engage his services, I still believed I had to try my best to get it off myself.

Ignoring the crawling that was happening while walking to the bus stop, I focused on what I had to do after reaching home.

Later that night, I took out as much sage as I could and started burning it. I sat in front of the burner and started to meditate. I focused on the heavy feeling and started to bring in energy. I focused the energy on those points, trying my best to target the entity.

After about 30 minutes of ‘fighting’ using silver energy, I took a break. I felt the entity dividing itself into a few parts. I didn’t know how to feel about that. It felt somewhat violating that something could just attach into me and consume my energies. I was still determined clear as much of it as I could.

After 2 hours, I decided to stop for the night. I had done all I could, and this was the result. My energies had been exhausted, my head felt heavy and my energy flow was partially blocked. I thought sleep would be the best option. I headed to bed.

The next morning came. I woke up feeling heavy and achy with a throbbing on my head. I decided to try once more. Again, I brought out sage, sat on a chair directly above the burner and lighted it. On to meditation. Another 2 hours. Silver energy and chasing the entity around my body. After about 1 hour, I felt the silver energies cut something and a very slight relief. But 4 hours of work for a one percent difference was not going to cut it. If anything, it was getting heavier overall.

I gave in. I decided to text Adrian.

I spent the entire day to do the same thing. I had my lunch, carried on with the clearing, had dinner and did more clearing. My attempts were ineffective, so I made the appointment to see Adrian. And spend the money to clear the entity.

The night that followed was extremely unpleasant. I had a really bad headache, almost to the point of sharp pain. My gut felt bloated and I could not breathe deeply. Regardless, I got to sleep.

The next morning was the most intense. I felt everything from the night before plus a dullness. I looked in the mirror. I had dark circles and my eyelids resembled those of the deity Shiva. Droopy.

I had lunch and waited anxiously for my appointment with Adrian that afternoon. In the mean time, I did some more clearing just to see how far I could get. Nothing. No flow, no grounding. I felt stuck.

I surrendered my battle somewhere around the time I left my house.

I reached the centre and knocked on the door. Adrian was there. David sitting at the back. The room was filled with sage smoke. The energies of the space were different. There was a bench prepared for me in the middle.

I sat down and looked at Adrian. He scanned my energetic body. After about 20 seconds, he described what he saw. He saw what looked like a giant spider demon that was sitting on top of my head, its web weaved around me. There were little baby spiders crawling around as well.

I was slightly horrified, but could not really say much more. I was already exhausted from ‘fighting’ over the previous 2 days. Either way, I requested to get it cleared.

He instructed me to close my eyes. I obliged. In the course of 5 minutes, I felt a warmth around my body. Slowly, I felt lighter and lighter. Things started to relax. My slumped posture improved. Eventually, I felt relief over my head, then my shoulders, and then my gut. I could breathe deeply again.

I still felt a deep ache in my heart. Like a weight there. “Adrian, my heart feels heavy, is there anything there?” (Energetic body-wise).

“Oh, the spider laid an egg there.” He said. Again, I was instructed to close my eyes. I didn’t react at that point, being tired from the entire ordeal. I simply followed. Again, the warmth fell over my body. This time, a clear, joyful energy surrounded me and the ‘object’ disappeared.

“How do you feel?”, Adrian’s voice prompted me to open my eyes. “Better”, I replied. My mind felt clearer. I felt more myself. “Sit for a while and repair your energies” Slowly but surely, I felt stronger and more stable.

Before leaving, I digitally transferred the tremendous amount of money to Adrian’s account. “It was worth it”, I told myself.

I went home, went straight to bed and had a really good nap. Though there were still some sores. I would eventually heal them over the next few days. The expensive lesson was more than just about finances. I braved an entity attachment and held myself without breaking. All the better for my confidence.

The next few lessons would be more challenging. But I would never forget this one.